ONE VERY PROUD MAMA

I had one of those moments this weekend when you know that everything you are doing is paying off! You know those moments when you have had a really challenging day and finally your little one goes to sleep and the love that fills your heart while you sit there watching them is so overwhelming that for a moment all you want to do is wake them up and give them a big cuddle.... Well, Paul was making dinner and I was finishing off the gingerbread men that Jordan & I had made when Jordan picked up a tea-towel and started drying the dishes on the sink while chatting away to us as if this was a normal everyday occurrence. I was one very proud mama and my heart was just so overwhelmed with love for this beautiful little boy of ours, I loved how we were all in the kitchen working side by side enjoying "our little family". These moments are priceless. All this comes after I had a day of feeling like I was drowning with the homeschooling, in particular keeping up with the Montessori philosophy we love. After chatting to his teacher, a trip to the library to get some books and a great meditation, I was back up and swimming. I decided to ease up on myself, stop and smell the roses as such and let Jordan lead me by his interests. Oh, that one is easy - ha, ha, I thought I was doing that already but when I stopped and thought about it, I was to a certain point but a lot of it was led by "me". Needless to say after I realised this we had the most amazing lesson (not planned) when Jordan spotted a clock I had bought and we learnt all about O'clock, 1/2 Past, Past and To.

Paul and I believe in letting Jordan have the space to make his own choices and learn the consequences of those choices (within reason) in a safe environment and by doing so giving him the confidence and ability to trust his own feelings and emotions independently (for the most part we do this but we do stop and reassess every so often just how we are doing , which is what I have been doing the past week). So my lesson has been relax and let it happen and he will learn so much more, and the events of the last couple of days have certainly proved this to me.